It’s All About the Journey
Time passes and new beginnings start and yet you still find yourself reflecting on the past. When do you stop asking yourself “why?” You’re still looking for answers but grapple with the realization that the answers may never come. Maybe they weren’t meant to and this journey is now leading you to a place where you need to accept that and move on.
You see, I’m a very forgiving person. I believe in faith, fairytales, and miracles. I’ve always believed in everlasting love and when I love someone, I love hard. I pour everything I have into that relationship. It’s taken me some time understand that sometimes your all isn’t enough for people.
I’m learning that some people will never be satisfied. They spend their time always needing more or thinking things are better on the outside. They spend their days thinking the grass is greener on the other side. But to me, that’s not the case. The grass is greener where you water it - where you pour your love and time into.
Despite how much you give to a relationship, the other person might want more. If they want more, that’s ok but the real problem comes from being dishonest and lying. It’s a difficult thing when you invest into your relationship, only to find the other person isn’t being upfront and honest with you.
That’s where many of us get stuck. You ask for more communication. You question why can’t there been more communication and openness, yet the other person feels as if it’s ok to live with lies and deceit. Their lies run so deep, it turns into a double life. The hardest part, however is when your partner is your best friend. Losing a best friend and a partner is like losing double.
But I say, when it’s done, it’s done. There’s no turning back. You just need to be fine with who you really are and what you really want in life. You have to to be happy with yourself and your new life.
It takes time and it takes work. Misery loves company, so you also have to be careful who you cry and talk to. This forces you to go deep inside and find yourself first.
I found myself for the first time in my entire life without a partner by my side and believe me, I was really scared not having a person to go to and to talk to. But they say this too shall pass, and as time goes on, it does and time heals all wounds. You just have to be strong enough to hold on.
In this healing journey you begin to realize who you are and that it’s really going to be ok - it may even be better than before.
I am here to tell you that you can get through this.
I did after 18 years of marriage. I started believing that we have different stages in this thing called life. People come in to our lives and people go. They come in for a season or reason but when the season and reason is over, they have to move along because there’s so much more out there for us. Sometimes with pain comes big blessings.
A quote from Steve Harvey that resonates with me is, if you don’t take your old car out of the garage, you’ll never have room for a new one …
God only knows why things happen. We just have to have faith remember if you keep God in front of you, no one will be able to take you down.
Thank you for being on this journey with me. I hope my story touches you and helps with your journey. And always remember, you are stronger than the things that try to overcome you. You just have to hold on.
